I want freedom from myself

Hi,

I am Nandini..

I hide myself and what I have from the world.

I keep inside me all I have.

I don't speak up..

I fear to post on facebook,

I am scared to put my paintings on my wall,

I hesitate in pasting up my photos to my album,

They are all what like.

They depict me.

But Not really me.

I had been this since a long way back.

But now I wish to give up.

Why hiding up my talent?

I write beautiful.

I sing lovely.

I paint superb.

Although I am not a good coder,

I surf high,

I have best collection of images when u give me a topic to search.

I saw my friends soaring high and waving a high,

I cud be with them.

Then what am I doing here?

Trodding the lame grass?

I have wings..

I can feel them.

They are just a bit weak.

Cause I have kept them aloof of the fact that they can cut the wind.

Even if they wished to take space..

I used to just mingle them in some other work.

Or give some other task so that they couldn't go.

I have now started using net,

I had a conception this is a mesh

It will tangle me inside.

I used to get so dazzled, in the Library.

It seemed I was suffering from virtual Dyslexia created intentional by my own.

I stopped going to Library too.

I thought of going to the stage to sing.

Then epilepsy seemed to swallow me.

I am in a world full of terror all created by my own.

I now hereby want to promise myself that I wont hide myself anymore.